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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 11, 2014 18:41:55 GMT -5
Leyshell liked to think she lived her life without regrets. That each action she made was one she wouldn't change if she had the chance. There were so many times that the complete opposite was true it was sad. She knew there was no turning back, her soul was compromised, her happiness and most importantly her heart. If there was one thing she could protect, she swore ip and down it was that. Yet here was karma telling her she was wrong yet again, why couldn't she be right just this once? She would never admit that she cared for Cameron...ever, he was a warm body and good time but even as she forced herself to repeat that she knew it was true.
What was worse was she had listened to her parents and stayed pure, now it was only ever going to be him. She couldn't even look at herself in the mirror sometimes, how had her plans become so warped that she was contemplating pregnancy to help someone she didn't care about. The answer was way to painful, or rather denial was. She still didn't know exactly what his deal was, sure he wouldn't do anything that would jeopardize himself and his freedom but there were ways. She knew that he had ulterior motives and it made her wish that this time was as easily as the first time she fell in love.
Sitting on the edge of the desk that stood off to the side of the room she watched the fireplace. The best thing about the castle was that there was hidden rooms all throughout the building. There was a rug and big comfortable couch in the room and not many people would bother her here. She held her habd towards the fire allowing the diamond the glint off light of the fire. Blood diamonds, so morbid and beautiful....it was funny she felt her ring reflected her house which reflected her. She twisted the ring on her finger, it was the closest she could get to removing it. Sometimes it felt like it weighed a ton, closing her eyes she allowed her meta skills to cancel out and slowly her hair grew down to the middle of her back and changed to a fiery red. She didn't need a mirror to trace the freckles that dottted the area around her nose or to see her jade green eyes reflecting back an unrecognizable girl.
When the door open she spared a slightly tilt of her head but didnt particularly acknowledge her fiancee. He was unfortunately a constant in her life right now....the only one which was disturbing to say the least. She hadn't exactly been the most vocal person since they had come back from christmas vacation. Not to say she had shut him out again, but she enjoyed the reprieve from planning her parent's downfall. Of course knowing him he probably wanted something, everyone wanted something when they talked to her.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 11, 2014 23:53:28 GMT -5
Cameron had not seen her hair this way nor her face and the moment he stepped through the door his mind was readjusting her in this new look. She had mentioned her hair before and the barest mention of the color and that was it. Seeing it this long also made his eyes give her a curious look, wondering when the last time it was actually cut compared to her just making it shorter with her skills. But the face was the one he was memorizing the most so he knew he had the right girl. As she turned her head he thought for a second he saw green in her eyes getting one eyebrow up wondering why that person was the one she hid.
She was attractive either way really, but the long hair got him more then the red did.
Stepping over to her he said softly "Nice color, but I like the length best. Has it ever been cut or have you always just adjusted?" Stepping up behind her, Cameron slid a hand around her waist as the other touched her hair, right at the back of her neck, softly, but not pressing it against her neck. Much softer near her ear he nearly whispered "Why does this image stay hidden, what does it mean to you, Leyshell. Are there bad memories attached? Because I can see you using this strong woman as a disguise easily. Most people wouldn't look twice at her, thinking you are someone else."
And if she was in here she had something on her mind, something was happening in her head. Leyshell was in many ways still a puzzle to Cameron which was a shame really. He felt they were close to a break through, some sort of understanding between them and he wanted that. They were, for better or worse, a team and despite her bad circumstances he knew they had to work together. And yes, he was attached to her emotionally, it was still growing in strength however not super strong yet. How could you not knowing that your lives were now becoming intertwined? "Sometimes I get the impression you wish you didn't have to be tough. Maybe that's just my impression, but you have some deep stuff going on in your head don't you."
It wasn't a question. It was an observation.
His hand continued from her side around her front, his other pulled her hair back from the side of her face long enough to sneak a kiss, a soft one at that. "You know if you need me to listen I will. Or if you want me to babble about something else so you don't need to talk I can do that too." His voice turned teasing as he added slightly softer "And if you don't want to think, I think I can distract you..."
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 12, 2014 0:30:33 GMT -5
Questions definitely had to he his favorite thing. At least thats what leyshell figured, or else he wouldn't ask them. She didnt let the thought he was actually trying to get to know her sink into her brain. She knew the real reason, she just wasnted to live in denial for a little while longer. "Just the edges, so it doesn't break off, but I've always just adjusted it." His question was such a scientific one she didn't care that answer slipped past her lips so easily. She turned her green eyes towards his and for moment she could see a the reflection of hers in his. The breif flicker of innocence had her tracing the freckles that splatter her nose and a few places her cheeks.
"Third year, I learned to fully control it....guys are a bit simple and some even had the audacity to ask me to change to suit their needs. Everything just moves so fast and changes so much its easy to get lost. I'd rather hide myself away than loose myself because people cant appreciate things. So I decided that no one would get to see the way I truly look.....I kinda like my freckles though. Anyways you're right, ive blended into the background before....Now its kinda...I dont know bittersweet?" Maybe she could've changed her appearance back but she didn't see a reason, she had shrunk a few inches and filled out in some places. The only problem with her abililty was that she could cancel it half way and she'd have to get used to being short again when she got preggers.
She scrunched her nose up at him and shrugged, he had no idea how right he was. She wanted to be thay naive spoiled heiress who didn't have a care in the world. Her only goal in life would be to be the perfect housewife and life would be simple. Maybe even fall in love and be happy, but she knew she could never let go, not completely. "Yeah, but then I'd have to trust that you could be tough enough for the both of us, lets face it im much better at tough" Even though it ended as a joke she was very much telling the truth. She really did want to trust him....be vulnerable but he didn't know how much of her she was truly letting him see. Everything had changed so suddenly, she used to dream of castles and art shows, she had a castle of sorts and art but she didn't have the same child like innocence.
He obviously wasn't going to make it easy for her, she smiled at the soft kiss as she turned around to completely face him."Unfortunately fof myself the idea of telling you everything sounds...intriguing but I wouldn't know where to start. As for the distraction, im not completely against it" she ruffled his curly hair, her favorite part about him....not counting the fact he could easily pick her up. One would think she wouldn't go for the strong type but she wanted someone who matched her, and she couldn't deny that he did.
"Have you ever fell in love?"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 12, 2014 1:23:08 GMT -5
There was something about holding a woman around the waist, some odd mix of control, possession, and desire not to mention permission which made his nostrils flare a tiny amount. In excitement, of course, but a point none the less. And he had held a number of beautiful young women around the waist, enjoying that very personal touch. But Leyshell felt more so, as if by having giving her a ring had marked her as his in his mind more intently, So his mind was a touch distracted as she responded. "Ah, I had wondered. I like your hair long and short both."
She had a smattering of freckles and it brought a smile to his lips. She probably hid those as he thought most girls didn't care for freckles. He thought they went with her eyes rather well. He was surprised when she said that she liked them. Pulling her against him as she turned he said "May I ask you for a favor, Leyshell? A personal one?" Was it his perspective or was she shorter? Curious. Even more curious to him that she had changed for others and kept the changes up in his mind; she was fierce enough to have resisted easily he suspected.
As she spoke about more in answer to his questions, his interest sharpened. "Tough? I may not be a weapons dealer and all that, Leyshell, but there are few who know how much I can do with a wand. My private studies into darker magics give me more then enough of an edge in a fight. Maybe you have not seen them, but some of them shouldn't be seen unless needed either. Besides my sister and my nephew, there is no one I will protect more then you." He swallowed, knowing it was more truth then she would expect as well.
"Anyone messes with you, they die. Period. I may not have your edges, but I can be deadly on my own." His eyes were fierce at the idea of her being threatened, his arm tightening around her a bit in response. When she tried to turn he loosened his grip so she could turn in his arms then clasped her close again, feeling a little thrill at it. She played with his hair a bit and he smirked. But his eyes turned surprised when she asked her question which certainly caught him off guard. "In love?"
His eyes roamed over her face a minute before he answered, clearly thinking and wondering why she asked. "Crushed, yes I think so. But love?" He sighed and softly shook his head seemingly with regret. "I would say that until now there has never been a situation I felt free enough to relax in enough to do it. I..." he broke off a second before his eyes were off over her shoulder at the blank wall "...I might have been close. Once." His eyes returned to her, curious. "Why do you ask?"
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 12, 2014 2:15:13 GMT -5
Leyshell was an expert at hiding the things she felt, and things she wasn't particularly good at hiding seemed to lead back to Cameron. In all honesty the boy was like her personal harbinger of doom. Like he was made specifically for the purpose of wrecking her into a million pieces. She didn't exactly know he was going to break her heart, but the thought was enough to put walls. Unfortunately, she wasn't able to hide the fact she actually liked being in Cameron's arms. Although she'd never actively seek them out, she was in no rush to discourage or avoid them in anyway. She could already feel the edges of cold receding in her chest, she didn't like it one bit. "I don't actually have a preference, it's never this long in public but never shorter the my shoulders." she didn't exactly like the way she looked with short hair, so she kept it at a medium length normally.
Leyshell laughed a bit, a personaly favor? Biting her lip she nodded in consent, a bit curious as to what he would ask. Even if she had said maybe, she'd probably would have end doing it anyways, long as it wasnt too ridiculous. She had already slept with him how much worse could it get? She inwardly smirked at the thought, when she put it like that it made it seem like a hardship. The real hardship was finding a private place in school besides this one, she didn't want to taint the sanctity of her sanctuary.....okay maybe she did. "why are you so tall" she asked in a sort of whiney voice, she'd have to stretch up to kiss him.....not that she wanted to or anything. There was a strict policy of affection as in he initiated all of it, she just played followed the hormone riddled teenage boy. She almost believed it....almost accept she sort of wanted to kiss him.
The problem with Cameron was that he had the power to sweep her off her feet (physically) with words. She was aware of his strength but the boy was quite the wordsmith and it irked her to know end. She knew he was being honest and that just made it easier to reach up and press her lips to his. Of course she didn't do the girlie thing and blush, she wasn't that type of girl...outwardly. "You're kinda hot when you're all protective and stuff" she said smirking up at him, she almost forgot her rule about not initiating almost. She nodded....love was such a big word.
"Before the BA and the tying of loose ends, it was just the smuggling. I didn't feel as evil I guess. I kind fell...not to hard just fell.....it was fun and reckless ya know. Then everything with the BA happened and I had to push people out not to mention Gryffindors don't exactly walk in the dark. It kinda hurt but I knew things like that didn't last."
She played with the edge of his shirt and sighed before speaking again, she didn't even know why she was telling him this. She was just giving him more ammo for later, even if she knew she was trying to trust him. If she couldn't trust him with stupid things like this she knew bigger things were hopeless.
"I was just curious you know to compare feelings to then and now, you remember what I told you on poker night and the night in my dorm...well its different this time and so frustrating why cant it just feel the same....im going crazy analyzing this."
There it was said, she was over thinking and she admitted it, where was dragon when you needed one?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 12, 2014 3:01:39 GMT -5
He nodded to her comment about hair and waited. When she nodded, clearly on edge he smiled at her. "Next time we sleep in the same bed, would you look like you? Long hair and green eyes are really doing a number on me right now and I'd like it to be the real you, even if you hide you the rest of the time." He slid his hands a bit lower bringing them down her rear, showing he was getting very interested at the moment. When she mentioned how tall he was, he grinned and sliding his hands down a touch more, he picked her up, his hands under her @ss.
"There, better for both of us," he chuckled and kissed her, passion in it before he let go with his tongue and moved to the wall, resting her back against it as he leaned in a bit more. The smell of her up close reminded his body that she would be giving him children, that she was the one who let him sleep in bed with her, and he could feel his body react with those physical traits that being close to a woman gave him. As she told him he was hot he said hoarsely "I think I find you hotter this way then you normally look..." with some heat behind it before he kissed her again, strongly.
She played with his shirt and he leaned his forehead against hers, feeling strong with her in his hands, quite literally with her feet off the floor around his waist. Never had he felt so close to being a real man, no longer under his parent's thumb but out on his own, making the decisions of a lifetime. "Leyshell, you think too much. Love is all about emotions and feelings and the only way to make any realizations is to be open to what is happening, feel the emotions. Thinking only gets in the way and makes it harder for you to realize."
Pressing her more against the wall (not uncomfortably) he leaned in slower and gave her three very breathy kisses, each a bit longer then the previous and then his lips did not leave hers, pressing in as he built the passion up between them...
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 12, 2014 17:50:32 GMT -5
Leyshell raised an eyebrow at his favor, be herself? She couldn't say she wasn't surprised because she was. It had been so long since she actually let her genes define her looks. Sighing she shrugged her shoulders, its not like he was asking for a lot but this was.....big? Even in her mind it didn't make sense, he was asking her to herself....at the most intimate of times. Shouldn't that have been endearing? Well it wasn't....it was scary but she reluctantly agreed despite her fears. "That wasn't exactly what I thought you'd ask but okay...different is good I think" Why did he have to be so confusing, he was messing with her head....and she didn't even think he was trying to. It most definitely had nothing to the fact his hands were sliding lower on her body in a slightly possessive way.....or the fact she found possessiveness extremely attractive. Maybe denial did more harm than good, there was nothing wrong with lusting after him right? After all they would most definitely be married soon....she cant say she wasn't excited. "I think I might just not change the way I look when its just us, its better than switching back and forth."
She let out a very girlie laugh...no a giggle (totally a giggle) when he lifted her up easily. She wrapped her legs around him, responding to his kiss with a lot more passion than she seemed to have for him normally. Maybe she could just show him, that she was giving in and not tell him. It's not like he'd think she'd have an ulterior movtive for suddenly being affectionate...right? "I think being short might be worth the trouble, if you keep this up" she said a bit breathlessly as she returned the next kiss just as enthusiastically as the first. One of her hands went to tangle in his hair and the other she left on his shoulder. She was really starting to forget why she even fought her feelings for him in the first place. The feelings were definitely different, but they were more intense...more physically but not less emotional. "Good, because at least one of our kids is gonna have red hair" She was sure of it, even if it was only because of a meta ability.
She sighed as she had to admit that he did have a point, she needed to stop thinking so much and just go with it. It was just getting increasingly difficult to tell her hormones from her feelings. "You're making it increasingly hard to think about anything but getting this shirt off" she said tugging at the shirt gently before scrunching her nose. She could tell her hair was still red and she figured it only went haywire when she was actively using her gifts. "Besides, I think I've given up" she whispered before she smiled into his kisses. She had to admit that he made her feel.....powerful. She always thought that she didn't need a guy to feel that way and maybe she didn't need him, but she wanted him.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 12, 2014 23:31:31 GMT -5
Her words brought a quirk to his lips. "Glad to not be predictable at least, though there is something very special about getting to see the you no one else does. I feel privileged if it makes you feel any better." 'And drawn,' he thought silently to himself. Hearing she might stay that way for the two of them made the quirk a bit more so. "I'll keep your secrets, Leyshell, though even though I know you will keep mine, they will son be ours, won't they?" He made a slight face, showing he wasn't completely thrilled with the idea like a bad taste in his mouth.
But resigned to it was there as well.
"The only other person I have ever shared things with is my sister. It will be hard keeping things from her I think after all this time." But the seriousness fell away when she giggled in his ear, his smile becoming broad and cheerful! As she wrapped her legs around him a certain amount of excitement came to his eyes, more then before. "Ha, well I don't think you will find it a disadvantage when we're both horizontal anyway, love," using it as a pet name.
Her enthusiasm in the kiss ratcheted things up another few notches. "Keep it up? Oh I will. You feel light in my arms and surely I must practice for carrying you over the threshold, right?" His eyes twinkled naughtily as he added "Not to mention holding you up in the shower." Another kiss. "I will never object to how they look, Leyshell, long as they have ten fingers and ten toes I think I shall be quite satisfied. Healthy kids are always beautiful. Although."
The thought took only a moment. "If it's the same shade as yours that one might end up being spoiled a lot more then the others..." A chuckle as the image of a red haired girl or boy skipped across his mind. "I hope you don't mind if I hope it's a boy. Most of the red haired people I have known were women." A red haired boy would be adorable, especially if he also had his curlies. An out loud laugh at the shirt comment. "Leyshell, all you have to do is ask..."
At that point he rather wanted it off himself as bad as she did. "Get a hold of the bottom, this will be quick." He lifted his leg, bending the knee till it was under her and pressed against her, lifting first one arm for her to slip it over and then the other, keeping her up in the air. Whether they went all the way right now or not was not the point; her hands on his bare skin was and he found himself looking forward to her exploration.
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 13, 2014 0:14:33 GMT -5
Leyshell resisted the urge to roll her eyes, did she just imagine the arrogance because she wanted to dislike him...or was it actually there? Maybe she was just reading into it too much....he didn't sound like he was constantly needing a ego boost. While that was good she wonder where confidence ended and arrogance began....because she was sure he was a tad bit arrogant. She of course would have to get rid of that but she seemed to just make it worse. It did occur to her that she was being to hard on him, she didn't expect him to be perfect.
It was just hard not to call out his flaws, as if it would remind her that she shouldn't fall for him because he wasn't perfect. She was anything but....even so it wasn't his heart that was on the line here. "Well, it makes me feel special if that's any help and yeah....secret sharing.....fun..." She wasn't exactly thrilled he knew about her smuggling business...or the murders....or the BA. She accepted that it was necessary to keep him safe and no how much he denied it, she wanted him safe.
She was sure the word was just a pet name but the word love made her heart skip just slightly. Not that she felt it had any meaning other than a pet name, however it home. She wasn't in love, she wouldn't say that but she was close and it felt.....weird. "True but I was under the impression horizontal was only implied not mandatory" she gave him a quirky smile, her eyes glinting playfully. Things were so much easier when she was wasn't worrying about thing.
"Oh? I think we might be taking quite a few showers in the near future" She said between kisses and his comment on how their kids turned out. She nodded about healthy kids, she felt this small warmth in her stomach at the mention of the kid they would have soon. Of course not any time this year....but next year...it seemed so close. "Of course, because having a bunch of kids with curly red hair is better than striaghtish brown hair, no offense" she stuck out her tongue a bit childishly at him, but she was comfortable around him. She was rarely a serious person when she let her guard down.
She wasn't ashamed to say her lust grew with the new show of strength and she was more than willing to quickly remove his shirt, which would no doubt by the end of the night end up on her body. She snorted in reply to his comment and let her fingers trace his abs and then her hands roam his chest. She loved how tan he was,it contrasted to her pale-ish complexion. She did tan well and her freckles got darker but she perfered her fair skin most of the time. She placed a few open mouth kisses down his chest before resting her head on his shoulder.
"Does it feel like were being extremely lazy by not planning our parents downfall?"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 13, 2014 1:28:02 GMT -5
She picked up on his feelings about secrets and he shook his head. "Doesn't seem fair does it, you spend your life building up your own things, your own ways, choosing the path you want and then suddenly you have to open up to another and hear all of their life too and then somehow put the two together like a jigsaw puzzle." He snorted, then grimaced. "I know it is going to be hard to do, Leyshell, but I'm trying."
A grin. "Oh no never mandatory. There are, after all, so many angles to try out it would be a shame to only do a few over and over like repetition. And places. Why, kitchens often feel as naughty as front hallways." A wink, half to show he was teasing. At the mention of showered approval he squeezed lightly with both of his hands adding huskily "Hmm, might need to get your shower rebuilt a bit for ... variety."
A tilt of the head when he released her lips as he said "I'll hope for one of each, curly and straight in both colors. I like variety." She eagerly helped remove his shirt and then he felt her cool fingers running over his skin, exploring. Nothing felt quite so good as a bold woman exploring her mate, at least to Cameron's thinking. Too many timid women out there never tried to physically 'claim' their guys the right ways.
He shook his head at her question, feeling his heart was going maybe a bit faster then normal. "No, we have far more time to play with then they do. Besides, this is helping us learn about each other which makes us better partners and with that trust we'll be more successful in what we do together." At the moment what he wanted to do with her was pretty clear he thought, but she seemed to be putting on the brakes as if he was maybe pushing a bit too much. He stayed alert for more clues...
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 13, 2014 17:43:40 GMT -5
Leyshell shrugged and then shook her head, that wasn't the worst part. The worst part was always wanting someone to share your hopes and dreams with but never getting that. Then one day you finally get it and it's not your choice, you don't get to choose to trust that person...you had to survive. She didn't think he'd be able to understand that. He had a sister who probably cared about him a lot....she had no one...him? Did she even have him, would he listen to all her foolish dreams about having a castle and being a famous artist with a open house and random artistically hippie children? Even if that wasn't who she was anymore, even if the flowers had wilted in the flower beds and the castle turned into a haunted mansion would he still want to hear them? "Honestly....that's not the part that bothers me, I've always wanted someone there to talk...confide in and tell all my silly foolish half-baked ideas but I was always alone in a big house with a bunch of elves and nannies. I had Zar and I understand him but it's not the same. Anyways I can tell you're trying, thats why I am" She smiled sadly and decided that if he asked she would tell him the hard part, the reason why she wasn't exactly sure. It was frustrating.....she had more freedom than he did but she wished her parents paid half as much attention to her as his did him. The grass wasn't always greener...stupid metaphors.
"Why stop at just the manor, we have a whole summer before we start planning for the end of seventh year, we can visit different countries it'll be fun" A goofy grin appeared on her face and she let her mind wander to the fun they could have, it was just a short time away. "Oh, yeah thats a story to tell the grans, we got our shower rebuilt for variety" she could help the laugh that slipped past her lips. If he was serious...maybe they could work, she just had to let her walls down enough to let him slip through. She was starting to realize that letting him in didn't mean she had to destroy her walls or let others in. Maybe she could let him be the strong one....for a little while, guys needed things like that right?
"Sounds legit, I dont care either way...I think im a bit...a tiny bit mind you excited." she hd her index finger and thumb together a bit to empathize her statment, even if she was extremely excited, she wouldn't let him known that. Of course talking about children and his current state of dress made her vision tint red, and not with anger. She breathed deeply and tried to remind herself she wanted to tell him that she trusted him. She had to take that stupid Gryffindor leap of faith, but he was distracting her with his muscles and chest and abs. Gosh not to mention his strength and the way he looked at her...that passion. She had to focus, remember what she wanted was more then him on the couch...or the floor...or the wall. Maybe the castle walls were good for something other than imprisonment.
She traces her hands over his body and mentally mapped out every visible piece of skin. They had to talk and she barely had control over her hormones these days, it was all his fault. That stupid agreement, and that poker night confession, it was alll his fault. "Okay I can agree with that." she trailed kisses down his neck trying to remember why she was trying to finish undressing him. "Speaking of trust, I supposed to be telling you something but im distracted" oh boy was she distracted.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 13, 2014 18:25:41 GMT -5
This sounded bigger then he had expected. Was she about to do some soul baring? In his life of learning women's details, Cameron had had a few girls break down on him, opening themselves up to complete trust. All but one of those was still completely open with him, he having learned how to work with them, how to encourage it as well. "I hear you. If I hadn't have had my sister, I don't know what I would have done. At least you have me now. I'll listen, but I reserve the right to playfully tease you sometimes with it." He sounded sincere, but playful sort of like a brother would.
Inside he crossed his mental fingers.
Leyshell could be a scarey girl he knew even in his short existence with her, but she had showed enough for him to see there was another part of her well buried. That was who he had to make contact with, bond with. It was the releasing of that inner repressed girl who was going to help him build a partnership and if he had to listen to the silliest things in the world, it would be entirely worth it. But if she was baring her deepest secrets, he would need to give her some of his as well. He sighed, seeing the need, but hesitant. Naturally.
Ah yes, he had thought about that. "I am sure that if we tell them" and he meant both sets of parents "that we want some time to bond, they will let us go somewhere we can have time together without their influence. And I would very much like to take you to a spa for a lengthy amount of exploration." The sort that had them ending up with no secrets left to share, physically or mentally, just a complete understanding of each other. That would eliminate any more stress between them about the future of marriage for certain. "Got to have something to gross them out."
He could feel himself reacting to her touch, stretching and flexing muscles as her hands slid across him, enjoying the feeling of being anticipated, desired, wanted. That was going to go a long way to easing his mind about what he would tell her as well, his own inner thoughts, but it was clouded by his own desires of stripping her out of her clothes as well. "Excited. I like the sound of that." Her words were half lost in the reaction to her lips and the fact she was near the edge of letting him in entirely; he barely caught them in time to react. There was a pause of several seconds as he said "Well we have to stop long enough to get your shirt off too, why not tell me while we work on that..."
Sliding one hand up to the bottom of her shirt, he slid his knee back underneath her as well. At the edge of her shirt he slid under it, spreading his fingers as he slowly inched up her front, the shirt resisting as best it could till he touched upon her bra, the taunt fabric encouraging her to get it out of his way, to let him explore as she did.
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 13, 2014 19:58:34 GMT -5
Leyshell bit her lip at his words, should she tell him? She felt the tears prick at her eyes and she busied herself with something other than his face. She didn't cry in front of people, the last time she cried had been when she broke her heart pushing people away. Taking a deep breath and willing the tears not to fall she sighed.
"Okay, for a while my mom tried and tried to arrange a marriage and if I disagreed my dad would disagreed, we were sooo close. I don't even know what changed, it's like one mintue we were on the same page and the next mintue its me against them. Then everything happened I found out my dad was well smuggling and then I got caught up in things. They decides to tell me about you the same they told me my mome was pregnant. It was like oh hey we finally got the perfect kids and we're getting rid of you."
She angrily glared at the tears that had started to fall, she was crying in front of him. Oh Merlin what had she done that warranted this, she was supposed to be strong, she didn't need anybody....she didn't need to cry. Even as she thought that the tears just silently fell as the words all rushed to her mind. So much to say, now that she wasn't holding back or more like she couldn't. The dam had finally broke, her emotions followed the rules of irreversible change.
"It was all last mintue and I hated not having a choice, I mean I ways knew my mom would win eventually but I figured I could sway her towards my thinking. I hate that they never took interest in my life and now they've choosen who I spend the rest of it with. Haven't they messed it up enough....and I know it's not all their fault...I now I had my part in how messed I am but still. Honestly who gives a fouteen year old their own manor and access to a liquor cabinet? Its not even fair to you because I was actually thinking about getting you to ask me out after the water park....but that night at dinner I just, you were an easy target. It was easier to blame you than think about how we were in the same boat. I didn't want to like you"
She played with her hair, the red hair that reminded her of her of both her parents. How could people think she was blonde, seriously people were stupid...she was stupid for breaking down. She wondered how long it would take him to use it against her, everything she was going to tell him.
"I never really had anyone to confide in besides Zar and I named him King Czar because I was ten and wanted to live in a castle and be a famous artist but I never got to tell anybody, I hated tea parties so no girls wanted to be friend and im more of a mor supporter when it came to quidditch, and I refused to be a cheerleader for the jerky kids my dad made hang with during boy meetings. I had nothing to do but talk to Czar which people thought was weird and morph with people thought was cool, thats how it started....I could change and then the attention.....and then plotting world domination"
In all honesty she didn't feel better after telling him the basics, she felt worse. The tears were slowing and she forced her eyes to lose their puffiness, her eyes changing back to their normal blue instead of natural green. She suddenly felt extremely naked, weak and.....small. Her ability seemed to kick start with her panic and the tips of hair started to change. Why was she telling him all of this, it was so wrong, she shouldn't trust him, but who else could she trust. Her height increased and she groaned before canceling the changes. Now she was having trouble with her ablities...what was she eleven?
"I so don't know who I am anymore, aren't I too young for an identity crisis. I mean I know who I am but how does that work with what I need to be, I can't be weak....I just...can't. I mean im obessed with cats and pink I mean I used to wear kitty cat sweaters but I dont know"
She sighed and waited for to see the wheels turn in his head, they probably already were. She'd be stuck just like her mother but even as she thought that and the silent tears began to fall she just wanted him to hold her. She wouldn't say that, she ignored that want and worked on staying strong, she didn't need him to feel safe or put together, she had to stay strong.
"Dont you think itll be more fun to just disappear and then write them a letter saying we'll be back, I can totally get your dad to see things my way." It was her experience that having one parent on your side was better than having both, you could pin them against each other and avoid any blame."Oh my, im sure that would he fun, camping and telling them stories about our wild years"
Of course he liked the sound of it, it sounded like he was getting what he wanted. She forced herself to believe thats what he meant, she was fighting a losing battle and she knew it. She liked the way his body reacted to her touch and vice versa, he was the only one that ever made her sing....she wished she had the same privilege but nothing was ever perfect in her world.
She lifted her arms as he pulled her shirt up and as it was going over her head, her arms not as long as they normally were she blurted it out "I trust you" she kissed him quickly and ran to the couch after she untangled herself from him, the slight fall to the ground make her snicker. She sprawled out in the couch and covered her face with a pillow but not before a barely audible whisper of "Please don't break it" What was she really asking him not to break, because it surely wasn't her trust.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 13, 2014 22:19:55 GMT -5
Suddenly, she began spilling and he hesitated, unsure where this was going. It had the sound of confession and serious business which grabbed his full attention; even his fingers froze as she began! However his experience came to the fore and his eyes and face took on the features of someone focusing completely on her and what she said. As she spoke about the change in her parents, his hands woke up and he freed one to rub her back, showing he was there and focusing, comforting her. Her words about perfect kids caused him to start. "They must not have realized what they were doing..."
Replace an adult child with untested babies? That would be insane.
Tears? Tears? Leyshell and tears? Suddenly he felt stunned, this was more then he had expected at all, blown away. This was the key and she was handing it to him, putting herself in his hands. Was this really happening? He had expected weeks, possibly months of careful progress and timing. As to her words, he heard the hate of the last minute, reminding him of his own anger about that particular moment. "I remember the surprise. I was quite pissed off, but they didn't slap me with another baby on the way either." He looked into her face, ignoring the tears.
"No, Leyshell, they didn't give you a fair chance. Neither of us actually. I understand where you are coming from on that for sure." He increased the size of the back rubbing, knowing that physical contact during this break down was important for how it ended up for certain! "I'm glad you didn't become a cheerleader. I don't think that fits you very well, Leyshell, you deserve to be out front, the main focus. I'm sorry your parents were stupid enough to not treat you right, but we can start over, make things new..." She had issues with control, something which told him the most how serious this was with her hair and eyes wavering in looks.
Then she said the first thing to really throw him. "Pink?" slipped out in his surprise. "Really? Like, pastel or that bright ultra-neon like stuff?" Gah, what a color. Cat sweaters were a close second, but if it was what she really wanted. "With your hair I would have never believed that color..." Her next thought made his mind spin; just...take off with her? "Hmm." She was the one who enjoyed being random, doing what she wanted. The thing was, Cameron while he had issues with his parents, he still did love them, wanted that closer connection down deep.
Just leaving felt like a real first step to betrayal of his parents. Was he ready to make it official?
A moment before he answered. "Fun. Let me think about that one for a few minutes, that's a big step at our house. It has more meaning then I think you realize." He held her up with his knees, letting her slide down the wall a foot for easier comfort and gave her a solid hug, supportive and protective at the same time. In her ear he said "I'm not turning you down on it, I just need to think. I trust you, but things are very different in my house." Wild stories, oh yes they would have wild stories he was sure.
While she may not have realized yet what she was doing to him with those hands, he was very much aware of how much he liked her touch, the way she made his skin tingle. She promised him she trusted him as she slipped off his knee and he let her go a second, holding her shirt up to breath in deeply, his eyes on her. Getting up and following her to the couch, he didn't get her second meaning, he only caught the first. Setting himself down beside her, his hand snaked across her bare middle and rested over her navel. "Leyshell, I won't break that trust. I told you we can only be strong together and I mean it. I will protect you, defend you, support you, and care for you. We're a team even if not of our own choice at first, but we can be strong if we try."
Kissing her in the middle of her chest his hand seemed to be implying he would protect the little ones to come as well in it's placement as he came up to look at her face covered in pillow. "I will not betray you and how could I? To betray you is to betray myself."
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Post by LEYSHELL NICOLE CONNER on Jul 13, 2014 23:12:52 GMT -5
Leyshell was always one who knew when guys were telling her what she wanted to hear. How else had she managed to stay untouched for so long before Cam came along. The problem with the boy no young man before her was that she wanted him to be genuine. That was the trick wasn't, the person wanted you said to be the truth so bad they believed it.
It was starting and she didn't even know if she truly believed he was using her anymore. She was really getting tired of fighting everything and one. She just wanted to run away and travel the world, be happy for once but things never really turned out that way. Her life wasnt that easy, because life took and took until you had nothing left...then you died. "Unfortunately im what they deemed a lost cause, they have a son for an heir and a daughter for a do over." the words tasted awful in her mouth, she didn't even know if they realized she still cared for them even if they paid her no attention. She snorted and mumbled something along the lines of lucky and shrugged her shoulders. Even if she held it she had come to terms with her screwed up life and uncertainty.
"Is really mean if I say you knowing all the right things to say is more than slightly annoying. Do you keep fortune cookies in your bushy hair or something?" she still wouldn't look at him as she angrily rubbed her eyes in efforts to get rid of the tears. He hit home on the attention bit, she had attention issues but not in the way that made her look awful, she had a image. What was worse she hated how she wanted his attention. It was annoying that she couldn't distant herself from him because he was perfect. Not in that mushy fairytale way but in that she could see herself with him in ten years.
"Just pink, it didn't matter but it changed to black and purple...everything just got all gothic on me and I don't even know. Well when I was younger my hair never really stayed red, maybe for a few months after my birth but after I never looked the way I was born constantly until I was like five because the ability was evening out and I needed to learn to control it." she smiled at the memory of her turning her skin to match her surroundings, perhaps that was a story to tell her children.
She stiffened when he hugged her, he wasn't supposed to do that and she couldn't fit herself as she relaxed. She had forgetten that his parents weren't completely at odds with him. She was used to have superficial friends that could leave whenever...like Finley and Hiromi. She waved off the explanation, she didn't have to guess to know that he wasn't sure about this whole parental downfall thing.
"Dont sweat it, you wanna ask them be my guest you can deal with them ill probably just disappear if they say no anyways sooooo" she was being honest with and that was a start right? Leyshell never had restrictions on what she could and couldn't do, she never even had a spending limit before. However she did understand that he wasn't completely ready to cut ties to his parents. At the same time with what they were planning if he couldn't go through with loosening his parents hold on him...their children wouldn't be seeing his parent's any time soon.
"Gah the smooth talk and sweet words does it ever end? Can't you be a stuttering dork for five mintues?" She asked moving the pillow to kiss him and then lay back down. She was only joking of course but she couldn't help but feel better, even if part of her was screaming that she was making a mistake. She had to live with him for the rest of her life, they needed her to trust him....if only to keep his word about not wanting to ruin this because it effected him.
"That last line was cheesy just so you know, im satisfied with your now mortal like smooth talk."
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