Post by MALLORY BLANCHEUR HAWTHORNE on Jul 25, 2014 20:02:32 GMT -5
 MALLORY HAWTHORNE SIXTEEN pureblood/quarter veela 6th year Sytherin 9 inches, veela hair, maple wood BIRTHDAY: March 14th PATRONUS: A swan ABILITIES: Occlumency, quarter veela February 14th, 2024 Patrick L., I know this letter will never get to you, because I will never ever send it. I do not have that much courage to send it anyway. So do not worry about not knowing how to response to this, just be the same person that you are, just treat me like a sister like you always do, that's enough for me. So you told me you like my sister the other day with the expression I have never seen in you. I have never seen your eyes light up that way, or your cheeks flushing that way. I must have looked very excited to hear that news, too, I guess; because you spent hours talking to me about what an amazing person she is. You sometimes you complimented by telling me that you noticed how much I was like my sister? I wished you could have just said that you had never noticed me. Not even once. But it is fine. Remember when you asked me why I never dated anyone and I told you that I wanted to focus on my studies? That was a lie. I want to focus on my studies, I really do. But my heart is a stubborn thing that will not take order from my brain. One of the few times my brain won the battle was in my first year, in the Sorting ceremony when I almost got sorted into Ravenclaw and I begged the Sorting Hat to put me in Slytherin so I would not get into troubles with my family. And you. You just make it worse, Patrick. I hate it when you hugged me to say goodbye. I hate it when you patted my head and treated me like a child. I hate it when you placed a hand on my shoulder and kept me calm when I was about to panic. I am not always this way, Patrick. Like you said, I am always polite and proper, just like how I am supposed to be given me being a Hawthorne. I used to refuse to call you by your first name when we first met, remember? And you kept teasing me that you would call me Ma'am if I did not stop addressing you by your family name. I am old-fashioned and quiet and self-controlled. I am. That is why I hate you so much, for making me going so crazy. Thankfully, I guess I am not showing it, not to you at least. Do you know how hard it is to be a Hawthorne? Or maybe it is how hard it is to me to be a Hawthorne. Just like you, my parents are always expecting me to be like Irene. It is simply because they never see me, not as a unique individual anyway. I am always Irene Hawthorne's shadow. Everyone knows me as 'Irene's twin sister'. But you know who I am. You've noticed me. But still you don't see me. It does not hurt at all, because I suppose sixteen is still too young to know the hurting of love. I have never felt loved enough to know what it is. My father never carried me on his shoulders like he carried Irene. My mother has never been proud of me like she is proud of Irene. So it is okay. And I do not know if I am in love with you or it is just a stupid childish crush that every teenager has to go through due to the effect of hormones. I just do not want to keep it to myself anymore. It is not going to be one of my outbursts, and I am not going to do anything profoundly idiotic. I will write these words down and put this letter somewhere no one can find. This is where I keep my heart, Patrick. And I am never letting anyone in. I will learn to keep you out, until I am something great. I am born to be something great. Every Hawthorne is meant to be something great. Someday I will no longer be 'Irene's twin sister'. For now, simply standing by you is good enough for me. I will help you to impress my sister if you want to. Promise. Mallory. hey guys, my name is ANISE! and I am rocking it at 16 years old, role-playing for roughly 4 years - so i'm pretty chill with anything. i'm in the UTC+10:00 time zone, and hail from AUSTRALIA so how about that! currently my character looks just like SAOIRSE RONAN or so i am told! I found y'all at BLESSINGS and that's pretty awesome isn't it? I currently have other faces on here known as A LOT OF OTHER CHARACTERS, so hit them up for plotting! anyways; peace my dears! |
