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Post by Deleted on Aug 7, 2014 23:25:18 GMT -5
Lisa looked at Alexander as she kept looking at him. While he might not be the person he wanted to be, she was there for him. "Alex don't be like this. I am not asking you this, I am giving you it, and I don't want you to walk away and not accept it. Maybe it is for once good that you take a good rest. You are safe here, take your rest and if anything happens I WILL protect you."She said as she looked at him. "I don't want you to worry, so take for once a good sleep and a warm shower, to take some thoughts away."Lisa said as she looked at him. Vasilisa stared at Alex hoping to find something inside his eyes that was telling him what he was thinking, or even what was going on in his mind. While he might not be a person that talked to much, his emotions said so much. While he took a seat on the floor, she stood up walking over to him. Going past him as she stood behind him. "For once trust someone, and she will trust you back. So for once let me bring you to the state."She said. She then put her hands on his shoulders as she started to give him a massage. "Let me take care of you, my house is your house Alex."She said as she went further with the massage, trying to bring him to a state of relaxing, hoping him to give him some rest inside his head.
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Post by ALEXANDER STRIFE DUVAL on Aug 9, 2014 2:54:46 GMT -5
i'll stand at the gates of hell with a glass of ice water in my handAlexander knew she might be able to relax him, at least a small bit but trust is something else completely. Trust was something he no longer found him capable of giving. He had his reasons and his were probably going to be up there with the best of reasons for anything. He lowered his head a bit let out a quiet sigh. Even if he ever wanted to trust someone, he knew he couldn't. Trust was just to risky, to much was put on the line. Alexander wouldn't even be able to trust someone with food, that's how afraid of trusting he actually was. Every time he thought about it, he thought about what was lost the last time he put faith in someone. "Forgive me but.. trust is something i can't offer any longer. I've only known loss when i put things in the hands of others and believed that things would be all right. I wont and cannot make that mistake again. I may no longer have anything to lose and i may never have anything else again but.. at least i won't allow myself to be as foolish as i once was." he spoke softly while placing his drink on the floor and putting his hands together in his lap. He looked down at them and thought. He knew what he had done with them and that was because of trust. "Have you ever lost anyone?" He brought his hands apart and took his wand from his pocket. He brought it up a bit and looked at it. He thought to himself about what he had done with it, what he might do in the future. He hated how things were uncertain and that no matter what he did he would never be able to tell if a day would come when he was considered a good person.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 9, 2014 7:51:24 GMT -5
Vasilisa looked at the young boy as he heard the words of the young wizard. The wizard that didn't trust someone, that person was full of emotions and reasons he did not tell, but she could feel it. The language he spoke and the stress on his back gave everything away. It gave away how Alexander felt and it was not normal for a young wizard to feel that way. So she started to try and hit the weak spots of the stress in his neck and shoulders hoping to give him back the relaxation he needed. She was not a good person that gave massages, but she felt the energy from the people and she knew how to handle people like that. "Well you might not offer it, but yet you are in my hands right now. Something not many people probably have done on you, and still I am not dead, nor do you have the urge to do something against it right?"She said as she started to be a bit more rough on the spot that felt like he had the most blockage in it. Trying to get it gone. "But do you really think that is going to be a great life, trusting no one. Fearing of people in your life. To become happy?"She said. How much she wanted to be happy, but she could understand him. After her marriage, and her running away she couldn't think that male were to be trusted, but soon she started to bloom again, getting a good feeling inside. "I lost so much, and I have lost most of my family, the contact is not there anymore. So yes I know how it is to lose someone, but you should not keep those dreams and images take over control. You make them your life, when you should take a step by putting it behind you."She said. She once started to go further giving him a massage as she saw him grabbing his wand. She didn't know what he did, but she could feel it took a great deal from his life. Something that was hard for him. Lisa then gave him a soft kiss in the neck as she went further trying to put Alexander to a state of relaxing.
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Post by ALEXANDER STRIFE DUVAL on Aug 9, 2014 8:36:36 GMT -5
i'll stand at the gates of hell with a glass of ice water in my handAlexander shook his head a bit. What she was doing felt great but he couldn't remove his mind from the things that mattered. He had these things on his mind for years now and there was nothing that would change that, at least not right now. He thought of what she had said, how she lost contact with her family and such and he felt bad for her but instead of showing it, he laughed a bit for some reason. He pulled away from her by sliding forward and standing up. He brought both hands up over his face and took a deep breath. All the things he wanted to say seemed to consume him and it only made him angry. He wasn't good with anger. He acted before he thought and was always violent when he was angry. "You've.... You've lost?" He said softly before raising his head and lowering his arms to his sides. He took a moment to think. It wasn't like he was going to try to calm himself or anything, He just wanted to be sure he worded this correctly. He moved around the coach and turned once he was behind it. He dropped both hands down on the back and looked at Lisa. His eyes narrowed as he stared at her. He seemed a lot more hateful than he was a moment ago. "You've lost? What have you lost? Take a walk, give them a call, drop in and say hello. You want to know what i have to do to go and see my family? I have to die and join them where ever they are." He squeezed the back of the couch with his hands. "You've lost? You've lost nothing. You've never pointed a wand at the woman that brought you into this world and uttered a few words that ended her life. You have never looked your arrogant and self centered father in the eyes as the last drop of blood that kept him alive leaked from the wounds you inflicted upon him. You have never crushed your little brothers throat underneath your shoe. You've never watched the horror fill his eyes as he wonders why his big brother is doing what he is doing." He lowered he head for a bit and got quiet. The only sound you could hear from him was the breaths he was taking. Finally, He knelt down behind the couch and put his forehead against the back. "You have never tortured one of your baby sisters with an unforgivable curse before finally killing her, not with your wand, not with a spell, not even with your own hands but with a knife. You have never grabbed little erica, the sweetest little sister in the world and picked her up by the neck, pinned her against a wall and choked her until she went limp." He made two fists with his hands and pushed them against the back of the couch. He stared down at the floor with tears now filling his eyes. As he thought about it, the scene became real again. He could see himself. He could see himself hurting the people he cared the most about. "You know nothing of lose and pain. You know nothing about having to lose someone you care about. Could you really stand up and tell me that you aren't like everyone else? That you don't constantly take things for granted every day? The people you see, the food and drink you consume. The things you wear, the places you go. Everyone does it, everyone takes everything for granted on a daily basis.. i just wish i hadn't. I took the people i cared about for granted because they were always there. I thought of them as invincible and never ending.. until i took their lives." As he raised his head he felt a feeling that he hated, tears. they found their way out of his eyes and had begun to slowly roll down his cheeks.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 9, 2014 9:03:09 GMT -5
While Vasilisa looked at what happened. She couldn't believe any word of it. She was with a murderer in the home but all she did was kept calm. Calm was the best solution for a person that went on a rampage. Telling his story about all he was going through. You would never think that happens. She sighed as she looked at him. "No I might not know how it is to lose someone, other then my dad who pushed me into a arranged marriage. The idiot that fucked me every moment in life, the man I should love, that beats me every moment. Getting bruises, blue eyes and anything else. Being raped isn't fun either, and crying yourself to sleep, trying to not break down into little pieces. It might be hard for you, but not everyone can have a great life. But you can change your future."She said as she looked at him. "You know I always thought I would find true love in the people, find the person that cares about me, but all I see are people that run away. Run away from me, running out of my life. So no I might not have lost my family by death, yet I lost something more. My life, my virginity, my marriage and everything I wanted to be."She said. She took off her shirt as she showed the many bruises and scars that she had. "I try to cover them all the time, because I have been near my end, the end to kill myself. No one knows it. You are the first that sees them." She said. She then walked over to Alex as she went next to him. "I might not know something of losing, other then myself but I know for sure what it is to lose. So yes I am not the good girl that people always see. I have more then most people think. So yes I don't grant people for life, and I don't trust them, but guess what. I trust you and see something different in you. So come here."She said as she put a hand around him hugging him deeply and wanting to show she was there for him.
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Post by ALEXANDER STRIFE DUVAL on Aug 10, 2014 3:54:12 GMT -5
i'll stand at the gates of hell with a glass of ice water in my handThe strangest thing, to alexander anyway, was her reaction to what he said and not her story itself. Why would someone react like that after he said what he did. It gave him an interesting feeling. he couldn't tell if it was good or bad but he honestly didnt care. It was just strange that she didnt react differently. After she had spoke he remained quiet for a moment. He couldn't really say anything back to that. It seemed they had both been through a lot, it wasn't up to either of them to say who had been through worse. He saw bruises and scars, he had seen plenty before but he couldn't help but look past them and at her. Perhaps she was doing that to get to him, taking her shirt off and such. He wasn't really sure but regardless he reached out. The tips of his fingers touched against one of her scars. "You hide what makes you who you are?" He said softly. Why would someone hide their scars? Yes some people thought they were ugly and others thought it meant different things but to Alexander a scar showed how strong of a person you were. The more you had, the more you had been through and so naturally he would see that you were a strong person. Finally though he moved his hand away from her body. He raised his eyes to meet hers and though he wanted to offer her a smile, he didn't. "Dont hide your scars." He felt bad for going on earlier like he did but he wouldn't apologize. There was nothing left to be said, or so he figured. It was already over and done with. He wished he hadn't said what he did, mostly because someone knew more about him than he wanted them too but he couldn't go back and change it now.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2014 4:28:19 GMT -5
Vasilisa looked at Alex as she felt his hands on one of the scars. For once a touch on her body didn't hurt, the scar was old, but the pain she lived with them was forever. Nothing could have changed the way she thought about it, but for once she felt no pain. Nothing from just the touch of his fingers on the scar. She looked at him as their eyes met. It was not many times that moment happen. Yet here it happened. She looked at him as she heard his words. "I hide not for who I am, I hide for the past I once had, putting it to a rest."She said as she looked at him. Scars were something that had a story. Every scar had his own marking that showed a story behind it. Most of them were accidents, but for Vasilisa it was a true pain. Something that she hide away so much. She then heard his words as she sat down in front of him looking him into the eyes. "I will not hide my scars if you will put your trust in me. Stay the night, take a good rest, but most important trust me."Vasilisa said as she put out her hand. "We are both hiding away from the world. You run away, I hide my true self. But with you I don't have to do that. You are the first person that touched my scars, my body without feeling pain Alex."She said. "This can be a safe house for you, I will never give you up. You just have to believe. Take my hand."She said waiting for him to grab her hand.
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Post by ALEXANDER STRIFE DUVAL on Aug 10, 2014 6:11:14 GMT -5
i'll stand at the gates of hell with a glass of ice water in my handAlexander was reluctant to do so but he finally took her hand. She was stubborn and he could easily see that. he wouldn't fight it anymore. He was far to tired for all of that. Sleeping was something he hadn't managed to do well for quite some time. Maybe tonight he could finally close his eyes and wake up the next morning feeling rested. he squeezed her hand a bit. Her skin was warm and he was use to the cold nights and the ground. He couldn't remember how many nights he had woken up with a root in his back or his head on a rock. It was just what he was use to now so this was going to be a bit difficult for him. "I won't bother to say that i can't trust you at all because you're clearly going to be stubborn so.. I will say it this way: Maybe i can learn to trust you." He wasn't honestly sure if it was possible for him to do so but he said it anyway with hopes of it making her feel a bit better. He took a deep breath and decided to tell himself that it was over for the night. No more fighting with himself, not more arguing with her either. Whatever she wanted he'd do. A good nights sleep and someone to hold onto for a while would help him even if he didnt want to believe it would. He was still angry inside, he always was, that was something about him that might never change, after all, he couldnt go back and change what he had done but he would try his hardest to quiet the anger inside of him.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2014 6:22:45 GMT -5
Lisa gave a smile as she felt the warm hand of Alex in hers. She little squeeze was innocent yet it did tell her something. It told her he was slowly getting the idea of trusting her. While they both had a wrong history, she was not going to let him go away, nor let him feel so terrible about himself. While he was a mess, sometimes they needed that bit of glue that will gave them the hope to be somebody again. She looked at him as she saw something good inside him, what probably no one would have seen. "That is a step Alex, that is more then enough for me right now. While it might look like I am stubborn to you, I just want you to feel safe at a place. Not trying to hide who you really are. Just like me."She said. "You at least give me the change to help you."She said as she pulled him closer giving him a warm hug, as she kissed him on the cheek. She then moved over to his ear as she started to whisper something in his ear. "Thank you Alex, it means a lot that you open yourself. That you open your heart. I am proud of you."She whispered as she then stood up. She pulled Alex up as she hold his hand. She pulled him with her as she headed over to her bedroom. She closed the door behind as she looked at him. "You should take a rest Alex."She said as she looked around her room. "Over there is the bathroom, if you need a bath or a shower. And else that bed is for you to use. A double persons bed, so you have enough space to have a good rest."She said as she gave him a soft smile. "Try to sleep and else I can always try to give you a medicine for it. So you get a clear rest without any nightmares."She said as she hold him close. She was going to sleep on the couch and she didn't mind. He needed it more. "Goodnight and sleep well Alex." Lisa said as she kicked him on his forehead and then one soft kiss on his lips. The kiss was great, as she stopped after a moment, as she turned around heading for the door so Alex could change his clothes, take a shower or even go sleeping.
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Post by ALEXANDER STRIFE DUVAL on Aug 10, 2014 8:55:41 GMT -5
i'll stand at the gates of hell with a glass of ice water in my handAlexander took a seat on the edge of the bed. He used both hands to brush back all of his hair and once he was done he had nothing left to do but sigh. He wasn't sure what to say to her, what to do. He wanted rest, that was obvious, he wanted it for years now but he wanted her to stay with him. So, there was about one option considering he needed to take a shower as well. "Lisa." He said softly. Something inside of him was telling him to sit back down and be quiet but he ignored that. He had already messed up plenty of times tonight so doing it one more time couldnt hurt anything could it? He was just confused now, He wasn't sure what was right and what was wrong, what he should do and what he shouldn't. Alexander was never good when it came to women and making them happy He knew she had been through plenty, so what was the right thing to do? Should he give her what she obviously wanted or should he do what he thought the right thing to do was and if doing nothing was actually the right thing to do then how could he after how nice she has been? He hated thoughts of goodness and how they tormented him sometimes. "Im sure that your shower is big enough for the both of us, yeah?" He spoke softly and just as the words left his mouth he felt as though he shouldnt of said them. Oh well, again, can't go back in time. He slid both hands into his pockets and lowered his eyes a bit. He wasn't sure what she was going to say, though he had an idea and the whole thing made him feel a bit odd to begin with.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2014 9:48:02 GMT -5
Vasilisa looked closely at Alex as she saw him taking a sit on the edge of the bed. He had so much on his mind, she could see it in his eyes. They showed his life story more then anything. While she never thought it would have effected her, it did. She headed over to him as she took a seat next to him when she heard her name. It was that sweet little word that came out of his mouth. Something that showed himself. "Alex."She said as she put a hand on his knee. She wasn't sure what he was going to say. Maybe it was just going to be a thank you. Maybe he didn't want her to leave, or sleep at the couch. Thoughts ran around in her mind as she was thinking too much about this situation. It was then that she heard his question as she looked up at him. Standing up as she stood in front of him. While she saw him lowering his eyes and the hands in the pockets. This was a moment she wouldn't have guessed that happened. The question that came out of the mouth of Alex, yet she didn't mind it. She was surprised but she was going to help him with it. She put her hand on his face, raising his head, so she could look in his eyes. "It is."She said as she pulled him up. She then pulled out his shirt, as she pulled him to the shower.
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