Post by Deleted on Mar 3, 2014 9:17:21 GMT -5
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CANON OR ORIGINAL: Original
AGE: Seventeen
FACE CLAIM: Anna Speckhart
YEAR: Seventh
HOUSE: Ravenclaw
OCCUPATION: N/A
BLOOD TYPE: Halfblood
WAND TYPE: 9", unicorn tail hair, ash wood.
PETS: None
ABILITIES: Werewolf (turned through bite)
freestyle
bastard [bas-terd]
noun
1. a person born of unmarried parents; an illegitimate child.
You are the result of a one-night stand.
Your mother and father didn’t love each other. How could they when they barely knew each other? They did the deed (so to speak) and almost nine months later you’re born. You have you father’s hair and mother’s eyes and in a perfect world, you father would have married your mother and the three of you would have been a perfect little family.
Except this isn’t a perfect world. You parents never marry. In fact they can’t stand each other. The only thing they have in common is you and that is the way they plan to keep it. So you grow up with your time split between two separate houses and two parents that can hardly look at each other why they are in the same room. Yet while they don’t love one another, they certainly love you. It is enough to keep you happy even though your family is far from conventional.
condition [kuh n-dish-uh n]
1. state of health
Or at least, that is what your grandmother refers to it as. She has never been the most opened minded person, still believing in folklore and the old way. So you try not to let it bother you when she makes comments about you as if you are terminally ill. In her mind, werewolves may as well be below house elves. You can’t lie to yourself and say that hearing her talk that way doesn’t upset you. Every time it comes up in conversation you have to fight the desire to tell her that you didn’t choose this, it happened and now you have to deal with it. You keep your mouth shut partly out of respect and partly out of fear, because you are terrified of what she will say when you finally do stick up for yourself. Yet while you may let her walk all over you, your mother doesn’t. She defends you constantly and when your grandmother keeps it up, your mother tells her to leave and not to come back till she changes her attitude.
You don’t remember much about the actual attack. The doctors said that you blocked it out as a coping mechanism. All in all, there was no rhyme or reason for it. There was no bad blood between families, no crazy werewolf looking to strengthen his numbers. Instead, the act that forever changed your life was simply left up to chance; you were in the wrong place at the wrong time.
What you do remember is your mother’s face when the doctors told her, your father storming out of the room and the sound of glass shattering in the hall. It took them to react for it to fully sink in. You will never be normal now, at least not really. Yet you can somewhat deal with that. What really bothers you is the lack of control over you own body. You can’t stop the change; there is no cure for lycanthropy and you doubt there ever will be.
shy [shahy]
adjective, shy·er or shi·er, shy·est or shi·est.
1. bashful; retiring.
2. easily frightened away; timid.
You are shy. There is no other way to put it really. There are some who would do anything to be noticed. They make jokes in class, dress in specific ways to draw eyes to them. They are loud and boisterous, always looking for ways to be in the spotlight for just a few seconds more. Not you though. You hate being the center of attention, hate that feeling of eyes fixed on your every move. It is enough to make you feel as though you are suffocating. You start to stutter and you tend to overthink everything you do and of course while you are busy panicking you are making a fool of yourself. Rambling is a terrible habit to have and yet you can’t seem to stop the words from coming out of your mouth. You can hear yourself and you know you aren’t making any sense and that knowledge makes you blush and your palms sweat. Soon you stop raising your hand to answer questions in class and do you best to keep the professor from calling your name. Your parents try to help as best as they can. They send you to doctors and therapist, because neither of them have a shy bone in their body and for the life of them they can’t understand why you are the way you are. All it does it make the matter worse.
Making friends proves to be a challenge. It shouldn’t be, because you are friendly and easy to get along with but you are also quiet and not one to put yourself out there. Talking to others is something you struggle with and it is easier to respond to others than it is to make the first move. And then there are the panic attacks,
rational [rash-uh-nl]
1. having or exercising reason, sound judgment, or good sense: a calm and rational negotiator.
2. endowed with the faculty of reason:.
You admire those who act without thinking. They jump into situation without a second thought; they leap without looking. There is a certain kind of courage that comes with being able to do such a thing and you wish you had that kind of strength. Instead you are left rationalizing. You have to think about everything you do. Every possible thing is factored into your equation and you only proceed when you like the outcome. If something does happen to go wrong, you spend hours going over it in your head trying to figure out something else you could have done.
perfectionist [per-fek-shuh-nist]
noun
1. a person who adheres to or believes in perfectionism.
2. a person who demands perfection of himself, herself, or others.
If there is one thing you can’t stand, it is disorganization. Everything has a place and you make sure it stays that way. Your room as a kid is always spotless and you mother jokes that it belongs more in one of her magazines than an actual child’s room. Straightening is something you do without realizing. You walk into a room and fix photos hanging on the wall or arrange things on the tables to your liking. It is worse when you get to school. Assignments that should only take a few hours end up taking whole days as you revise and fix it. You find that you can’t turn in something until you are completely satisfied with the work you put in and in the end you go through parchment after parchment. The library becomes you second home and you spend your day skimming over texts looking for things you missed.
naive [nah-eev]
adjective
1. having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality; unsophisticated; ingenuous.
Your father says that you are trusting. Others just say you are naïve. You figure there is a chance that they are both right. Whatever it is, you can’t bring yourself to change. You like to see the good in people, no matter the situation. Passing judgment on someone based on hearsay alone doesn’t work for you. It takes multiple meetings for you to form an actual opinion on anyone. You like to live by a moral compass and you can’t help but expect others to do the right thing. It is the one time you can say you get upset, when they fail to live up to the standards that you see in them. So you do your best to help them, because you are hardly one to walk away from someone.
The whole thing leaves you opened to being taken advantage of, at least that is what your parents warn you about time and time again. You know that they are telling you this in hopes that part of you will grow up (as your grandmother so kindly puts it), but you don’t see it that way. It is your nature to be this way and if they decide to use it to his or her advantage, than you reason you will just have to deal with the consequences.
noun
1. a person born of unmarried parents; an illegitimate child.
You are the result of a one-night stand.
Your mother and father didn’t love each other. How could they when they barely knew each other? They did the deed (so to speak) and almost nine months later you’re born. You have you father’s hair and mother’s eyes and in a perfect world, you father would have married your mother and the three of you would have been a perfect little family.
Except this isn’t a perfect world. You parents never marry. In fact they can’t stand each other. The only thing they have in common is you and that is the way they plan to keep it. So you grow up with your time split between two separate houses and two parents that can hardly look at each other why they are in the same room. Yet while they don’t love one another, they certainly love you. It is enough to keep you happy even though your family is far from conventional.
condition [kuh n-dish-uh n]
1. state of health
Or at least, that is what your grandmother refers to it as. She has never been the most opened minded person, still believing in folklore and the old way. So you try not to let it bother you when she makes comments about you as if you are terminally ill. In her mind, werewolves may as well be below house elves. You can’t lie to yourself and say that hearing her talk that way doesn’t upset you. Every time it comes up in conversation you have to fight the desire to tell her that you didn’t choose this, it happened and now you have to deal with it. You keep your mouth shut partly out of respect and partly out of fear, because you are terrified of what she will say when you finally do stick up for yourself. Yet while you may let her walk all over you, your mother doesn’t. She defends you constantly and when your grandmother keeps it up, your mother tells her to leave and not to come back till she changes her attitude.
You don’t remember much about the actual attack. The doctors said that you blocked it out as a coping mechanism. All in all, there was no rhyme or reason for it. There was no bad blood between families, no crazy werewolf looking to strengthen his numbers. Instead, the act that forever changed your life was simply left up to chance; you were in the wrong place at the wrong time.
What you do remember is your mother’s face when the doctors told her, your father storming out of the room and the sound of glass shattering in the hall. It took them to react for it to fully sink in. You will never be normal now, at least not really. Yet you can somewhat deal with that. What really bothers you is the lack of control over you own body. You can’t stop the change; there is no cure for lycanthropy and you doubt there ever will be.
shy [shahy]
adjective, shy·er or shi·er, shy·est or shi·est.
1. bashful; retiring.
2. easily frightened away; timid.
You are shy. There is no other way to put it really. There are some who would do anything to be noticed. They make jokes in class, dress in specific ways to draw eyes to them. They are loud and boisterous, always looking for ways to be in the spotlight for just a few seconds more. Not you though. You hate being the center of attention, hate that feeling of eyes fixed on your every move. It is enough to make you feel as though you are suffocating. You start to stutter and you tend to overthink everything you do and of course while you are busy panicking you are making a fool of yourself. Rambling is a terrible habit to have and yet you can’t seem to stop the words from coming out of your mouth. You can hear yourself and you know you aren’t making any sense and that knowledge makes you blush and your palms sweat. Soon you stop raising your hand to answer questions in class and do you best to keep the professor from calling your name. Your parents try to help as best as they can. They send you to doctors and therapist, because neither of them have a shy bone in their body and for the life of them they can’t understand why you are the way you are. All it does it make the matter worse.
Making friends proves to be a challenge. It shouldn’t be, because you are friendly and easy to get along with but you are also quiet and not one to put yourself out there. Talking to others is something you struggle with and it is easier to respond to others than it is to make the first move. And then there are the panic attacks,
rational [rash-uh-nl]
1. having or exercising reason, sound judgment, or good sense: a calm and rational negotiator.
2. endowed with the faculty of reason:.
You admire those who act without thinking. They jump into situation without a second thought; they leap without looking. There is a certain kind of courage that comes with being able to do such a thing and you wish you had that kind of strength. Instead you are left rationalizing. You have to think about everything you do. Every possible thing is factored into your equation and you only proceed when you like the outcome. If something does happen to go wrong, you spend hours going over it in your head trying to figure out something else you could have done.
perfectionist [per-fek-shuh-nist]
noun
1. a person who adheres to or believes in perfectionism.
2. a person who demands perfection of himself, herself, or others.
If there is one thing you can’t stand, it is disorganization. Everything has a place and you make sure it stays that way. Your room as a kid is always spotless and you mother jokes that it belongs more in one of her magazines than an actual child’s room. Straightening is something you do without realizing. You walk into a room and fix photos hanging on the wall or arrange things on the tables to your liking. It is worse when you get to school. Assignments that should only take a few hours end up taking whole days as you revise and fix it. You find that you can’t turn in something until you are completely satisfied with the work you put in and in the end you go through parchment after parchment. The library becomes you second home and you spend your day skimming over texts looking for things you missed.
naive [nah-eev]
adjective
1. having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality; unsophisticated; ingenuous.
Your father says that you are trusting. Others just say you are naïve. You figure there is a chance that they are both right. Whatever it is, you can’t bring yourself to change. You like to see the good in people, no matter the situation. Passing judgment on someone based on hearsay alone doesn’t work for you. It takes multiple meetings for you to form an actual opinion on anyone. You like to live by a moral compass and you can’t help but expect others to do the right thing. It is the one time you can say you get upset, when they fail to live up to the standards that you see in them. So you do your best to help them, because you are hardly one to walk away from someone.
The whole thing leaves you opened to being taken advantage of, at least that is what your parents warn you about time and time again. You know that they are telling you this in hopes that part of you will grow up (as your grandmother so kindly puts it), but you don’t see it that way. It is your nature to be this way and if they decide to use it to his or her advantage, than you reason you will just have to deal with the consequences.
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