missing you // Rosalie

[LORCAN ELIJAH SCAMANDER]

Rosalie,

I've never been good at writing owls, probably never will be. Writing my thoughts out to someone on a sheet of paper just seems impersonal but it's the best I can do right now. I hope you arrived safely back home after our trip to Rome. In fact I hope all has been well there at your home. I got back and apparently Lysander is head over heels for Gabriella White. I think he's much better at writing these owls than I am. They've been writing each other off and on all summer I guess. It's quite exciting for him.

I miss seeing you each day Miss Rosalie Harper, and I was planning on purchasing my school books here next week, if you can you should meet me there. Summer has been quite boring since getting back. Especially after certain things back in Rome. I miss you though. So if you can't come to Diagon Alley, meet me on the train? Very back compartment?

Lorcan

ROSALIE POSEY HARPER

[ROSALIE POSEY HARPER]

dear ||Lorcan

I've missed you so much! I think I'm dying of boredom here. There are all sorts of stupid planning, and that's all anyone seems ready to talk about. Right from the moment father brought me back. I can't handle it much longer. Term can't come any closer. Unfortunately, neither of my parents will allow me out in Diagon Alley. I've done too much to "shame" them. I'm sure you'll see my brother out and about. He been sent to do that for me, poor soul.

I would very much like to meet you. I'm looking forward to company beside that of my family and family-to-be. Lysander has a girlfriend? That's adorable!! I can't imagine that, but I suppose...Gabriella White? I've not spoken to her before, I don't think. Has he spoken to you about her much?

thinking of you ||Rosalie

[LORCAN ELIJAH SCAMANDER]

Rosalie,

I'm glad you miss me so much. I could come kidnap you if you'd like... You probably won't will you? I mean everything about what is going on, you probably don't want to make it worse by running off wild with a Scamander boy, especially this Scamander boy. I guess I'm not the best influence, am I? So your family knows everything? Or are they in the dark?

As for Lysander and Gabriella, yes the most I know about her is that her brother is in our year, he's in Slytherin and kind of a pain in the arse, but no, I mean I've been told that she's awesome and what not but not too much more than that.

Rosey, I know I love you very much, and can't wait for the first day of school. Promise to sit with me on the train? We can maybe discuss some certain events that you know I'll be no good at talking about. But without Caesar around I think it'll be a good thing, if you don't mind. We kind of need it. I've just kind of been thinking everything over. I feel terrible, I hope that it hasn't changed anything between us, or at least nothing for bad. I mean considering you still miss me I think I'm still on your good side.

Sorry I hate to bring up old things... I seem to be saying that word a lot, sorry, I dunno why, it's not me to say sorry, really not me.

Lorcan

[ROSALIE POSEY HARPER]

dear ||Lorcan

Right now, I don't think there is anything else I would like more than for you to come and kidnap me.

Unfortunately, you're very right. I don't think it would be wise for you to come and whisk me away, no matter how much both of us want you to. And, Lorcan, believe me, I really do want you to. The only person who knows is my little brother, Edward. That's mostly because he's figured it out on his own. My brother is a great many things; intuitive and informative is one of them. But, he's not cruel and so he keeps this secret and keeps me sane while we are parted. No one else knows - not even the Montague family, I don't think. Not unless Caesar has told them.

I can't say anything bad about them, haha. I'm friends with a great many Slytherin, as you know. (Enough to be the only one in our group of 'childhood friends' to be the only one not sorted in Slytherin, ugh.) Well, I guess we'll just have to stalk him on the train and find out more about her, right? After some time by ourselves, of course.

Promise? Why would I promise something so silly? Of course I will sit with you! You're the first person I want to see. Yes, even with everything that has happened, I still want to see you very much. I know that we have to talk about it. I've been wanting to write you and Caesar about it all summer. I fear that it will probably change a great many things, Lorcan, even if we don't want it to. I'm sorry I didn't tell you who it was. Everything is my fault. I told you part of the story when I should have told you all of it. And, I didn't tell him anything. That's why he reacted the way he did. I was unfair to you both. I thought that, maybe, you were angry at me or something.

Don't apologize. It's really my fault.

thinking of you ||Rosalie

[LORCAN ELIJAH SCAMANDER]

Rosalie,

I'm glad that you would like for me to do that. It is plausible that I could do it with your parents never being the wiser, well at least until they noticed you were missing though. Hehe... I laughed at that bit. I learned how to apparate, even went to the ministry and passed my test. I'm fully legal! I could, you know, just pop right in grab you and go, perfect kidnapping. Look and I have it all planned out. Now I'm grinning as I write. Your brother is too good to you, spoiling you a little too much.

I heard that Ethan, I think that's his name, Gabriella's older brother. I heard that their family threw a fit when she was sorted into Gryffindor. I just don't understand how pureblood families work. Alas though, I don't think I ever will. Is that a good thing though? Hmm... Food for thought. Mum and Dad would have been plenty happy had Lysander or I been sorted into any of the four houses at Hogwarts, even Slytherin. It's the wizard that makes their life not the house despite snakes having a notorious reputation for being evil. As for stalking my brother I would much rather be snuggled to you than watching him snog Gabriella White.

I am glad you say that. And I am aware. Things are changed, it's something that we will have to get used to. You told me plenty that you thought was right at the moment, I just would have never thought Caesar would have been the guy. He's always been so cool. I have a feeling that Caesar and I will no longer be friends though. I don't have the guts to write him. We should have told him though. In the beginning. Things could have been different. And even if you and I do not make it past your wedding. I want to always be friends with you. I accepted this fact the day you told me and as much as I wish I could intervene and tell your parents off, I do not believe that you would let me. Rosalie, you and I can always be something, even if it's not how I'd particularly would like it.

I was upset at myself. I have a big mouth, one of my vices, I know I have a few of those. But mad at you Rosalie. I could never do that, you should know me better than that Miss Harper. Lorcan Scamander doesn't get mad, he just gets upset, usually at himself, throws a bit of a pity party and then is back up to the Lorcan that everyone knows.

And I can apologize for anything I want to. It's not your fault. You were thrown into a situation that you didn't want to be in, and you chose not to share information that was yours, not mine, and not Caesar's. We can be mad at each other, but I will never be mad at you and I very much believe the same to him. But it's far from your fault. Please Rosalie do not blame yourself. If anything blame this world that we were born into, blame it for people not being able to accept other peoples choices and blame the people who want to make you live their ways not your own. I'm sorry. And I'll say it a thousand times more. Do not ever tell me not to apologize.

Lorcan

[ROSALIE POSEY HARPER]

dear ||Lorcan

You're so silly, love. Or, perhaps it is that I've never mentioned the wards we have on the house? No one is allowed to apparate in or out of the premise without express permission from the Lord/Lady of the House. As I am to be married off - ugh - that can, unfortunately, never be me. My mother or my father would catch you in an instant, and Edward wouldn't give you permission no matter how much I would promise him to do so. Don't you know, darling, that I am older than you? I took apparating lessons in April. I just dislike the feeling. Although, with you, I don't think that I would mind it too much.

Ah. She must be new blood or something like that. Otherwise, I'm certain our families would have gotten together at some point. That's how we're so close with the Montagues, Malfoys, Flints, Notts, ect. You get the point. I'm a pureblood, and I'm not even always sure how we work. We just...do. I think I can relate, however...what with my family throwing a fit when I was sorted into Hufflepuff. But, yes, I am very grateful you are nothing like our pureblood boys. I don't think I'd even fancy you a smidgen if you were. You're a tad bit...too rebellious for them. Even with some of them being the way that they are, you draw far too much attention to yourself. Don't get me wrong, I love that about you.

I've never liked change. At least, I didn't before I met you. Since then, I find that I don't mind it all that much. Just, hopefully, you'll continue to be around. Otherwise, I'll go back to disliking it. But, Lorcan, I wanted to tell you all of it. I wanted to tell you, and I wanted to tell Caesar; I was just never entirely sure how to go about it. Every time I worked up the nerve to tell one of you, one of the two of you would do something that would just make me lose myself all over again. As for cool, not always. I've known him since we were children; him and Scorpius Malfoy both. Let me just say, after witnessing the two of them play around, they have definitely not always been 'cool'. I don't want to be the reason that your friendship fell apart. A friendship should never fall apart over some silly girl. But, if it makes you feel better, any correspondence I've shared with him has been positively frigid.

Do not talk about the wedding, please. It is all I ever hear about. It's almost as if it's consuming my life, and I don't want it to. What if that is what my future is like, Lorcan? What if all that is ever expected of me is to be Lady Montague? While Caesar would never take away my dreams, I believe that my parents might. I very much wish I could stand up to them and tell them myself so that you wouldn't feel compelled to, but I don't have the nerve. And, darling, if you ever met my father, I'm sure you'd lose your nerve, too. Don't be upset. It had to come out eventually, and it's better that it happened then than if it would have happened after we did something irreversible.

I'm sorry. I should know you better, but I never know with you, my silly love. If you had written to me earlier, I might have kept you from getting too upset with you. That is certainly what you've done with me. It's partially my fault for not writing to you, too. You always make me feel better, but I'll admit to frustrating my 'penpal' with all my grief. I bet she tires of me, ha.

I love you, Lorcan. It's because I love you that I'm going to tell you to stop apologizing, or I'll refrain from snogging you when we finally get to be together.

love ||Rosey